F, W, B, S

mood: :) excited and hungry (Is “hungry” a mood?)
music: Don’t Stop – Foster the People

Break is ending, and with that, I’m starting to think about this next semester. This next, last undergraduate semester. Crazy how final everything seems.

Being in charge of the night department is so weird. Lots of expectations and pressure on my shoulders. I refuse to buckle, though. It will be worth it. It is worth it.

Been doing some BFR work over break, too. Feel really guilty. Not sure how to break it to the managers that I might not be able to attend the weekly meetings because of SEB. Still down to be committed. Crossing my fingers that they need my tech skills enough to keep me on, but I don’t know.

Web stuff is going to be interesting, too. I’m going to have to create a whole new website for my contract company, since some of the higher ups threw a fit over the consolidation of the two websites that took place last summer. Going to be using it as an opportunity to train Kelsey, which should also be interesting. I’m hoping that the small number of hours I’ll be spending in class will spare me a lot of time to make a lot of money. I’m going to need it. 2011 was a very spendy year.

And then there are job apps. Looking into and applying to everything from my goal job (production assistant) to things like e-books manager and technical writer and web producer. Designer and UI developer are the reach jobs. Sigh. Feel kinda weird since a lot of my friends are still going to be in school (either undergrad or grad) while I hopefully get out there and make a life for myself. I just hope I’m not overconfident!

In non-work-related news, I got myself a Nook Tablet (for half the price)! Delightful little thing. Fanfiction reads like a dream on it. So fantastic.

Adventure Time is my new love. It is utterly brilliant. I can’t decide whether I want a Finn or want to be Finn.

Am relieved to be over Mr. Five. Still think about him, but I am no longer deluded that anything is going to happen between us. Not saying I want things between us to stop, though. I like having FBs, although tossing a “W” in there would be preferred. Well, there’s a whole semester ahead of me. I think these senior dudes, like me, don’t really see any reason to get committed so late in the game. Even thinking about starting to date someone and having to deal with post-college drama gives me a headache. I really don’t want to hurt someone again. But, well. There’s no saying where this semester’s going to take us.

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Resolutions for 2012

  • Learn to be punctual. (This failed completely. Frick.)
  • Go to sleep and wake up at decent, normal-people times. (It’s been difficult, but I’ve managed. Ish.)
  • Swear (even) less.
  • Exercise. (At least I feel like a gross lump if I don’t get any.)
  • Finish (or at least be close to finishing) a zero draft of the Pantheon story.
  • Publish at least two more fanfiction installments/new stories. (3!)
  • Read at least seven new books outside of school. (20!)
  • Get only B’s and higher.
  • Hit LVL 85 on WoW. (So close!)
  • Max a DC Universe Online character.
  • Keep staying well-informed/up-to-date with news (politics, tech, nerdyshiz).
  • Keep a record of finances.
  • Call people more.
  • Do something productive over the summer.

Dude. I’ve done pretty well this year. Yay! The punctual thing, as well as the inability to keep track of finances, are definitely big things I really need to work on, though. The calling people thing has to do with initiating stuff, which I still struggle with. A lot. Social anxiety, you suck.

Okay, for next year, I want to:

  • Be more punctual, damn it.
  • Get a job.
  • Exercise!
  • Reply to texts and e-mails faster.
  • Read 15 books outside of school.
  • Be thriftier.
  • Do NaNoWriMo!
  • Participate in either a Big Bang or a gift exchange.
  • Travel somewhere new.
  • Drink in a more controlled manner.
  • Not go home with anyone with whom I don’t feel comfortable and enthusiastic about.
  • Learn to bake more!
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