mood: excited & enthusiastic
music: Skorpinok – Transformers Score

I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED FOR TRANSFORMERS TONIGHT

I’m going to the midnight showing down at the nice, big theaters so I’m really excited. It totally flopped on Rotten Tomatoes, but I’m excited anyway. I have advertised my excitement on like three of my statuses in different media, and Alex IMed me earlier talking about how it sucked. And even when I told him that the first one was one of my favorite movies and how I was really excited to see the sequel, he still went on about how it sucked. Ugh, sometimes I really question the people I choose to be friends with. The other day, I was telling Mark about this Heartshipping fanfiction I’m writing and how I was really excited because it has been coming along really well (15 pages already of really good stuff, and I haven’t even gotten to the main romance yet), and I was telling him about the entire plot and everything, and he actually said something other than “lol” so I got really excited and told him that this was a totally new step forward in our relationship — him actually really expressing/giving a fuck about the things that I like/that I’m proud of. But then he said that he was just censoring himself and choosing his words carefully, and it just felt like…a bullet in the heart, I dunno.

Sometimes, I just wish that my friends were all just a little more like me, but I guess that’s silly because where would the fun be in that, right? It just…really makes me feel alone sometimes. In a depressing way. Oh, I don’t know. I’m hardly unappreciative of my friends, but sometimes I feel like there’s a LOT in my life that I want to share with other people, but there’s nobody around that I can share it with. Like, of course they’ll let me talk at them, but it would be nice to have someone who actually really cares when I talk about I dunno, the fact that I am head-over-heels in love with Japanese Yami no Bakura’s voice and his maniacal laughter.

P.S. There’s a 3:15 AM showing at Spectrum. WHO THE FUCK IS GOING TO GO TO THAT LOL? Crazy fanboys, I guess. Okay, fine, I so would, except for the fact that my mom would probably freak the shit out. Actually, she probably would never notice… XD