Being gay is not a choice, because the first person I ever felt attracted to was an adorable girl named Caitlin in the other kindergarten class.
I didn’t even know what being gay meant until three years later.
Do you think that a five-year-old really ever sat there and decided, “Hmm, I think I want to be gay now”?
I certainly didn’t.
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Secret #11: I cry every time we have to leave each other.
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10 Things to Do Before I Die
1. Participate in a protest for gay rights
2. Participate in/win NaNoWriMo
3. Camp a video game
4. Visit Hawaii with my friends
5. Attend a Matchbox Twenty or Rob Thomas concert
6. Go clubbing in Las Vegas
7. Go on a vacation with Mark
8. Own a vibraphone set
9. Get a lap dance
10. Publish a book
10 Things I Live For
1. Sunshine and clear blue skies
2. Laughter
3. Friendship & camaraderie
4. Love
5. Reading
6. Writing
7. Music
8. The feeling of a warm, soft bed
9. Technology
10. Happiness
10 Things I Find Annoying
1. The bland taste of leftovers
2. Rain
3. Being lectured
4. Dirty restaurants
5. The word “fag” and the phrase “That’s gay”
6. Being told which human beings I can and cannot marry
7. Sarah Palin
8. Arguments
9. Girls who like to buy expensive shoes and bags
10. Derogatory jokes
10 People I Love
1. Mark – because he has so much spirit
2. Diana – because she is one of my kind
3. Jayne – because she listens
4. Maggie – because she wants to help
5. Kelly – because she’s genuine
6. Amanda – because she has troubles, too
7. Erin – because she applies herself to friendship
8. Jess – because she raises my spirits
9. My mom – because she tries to give me everything
10. My dad – because he is the hardest working person I know
10 Wishes for the Future
1. To have a successful college experience at Cal
2. For my relationship with Mark to last happily
3. To remain close with my current friends for as long as I live
4. To attain a career that I love
5. To be able to study graphic design at some point in my life
6. To live to see the gay rights movement succeed
7. To earn enough money to live comfortably
8. To find ways to continue playing music in ensembles
9. For all my friends to live happy lives
10. For the members of my family to be happy
10 Regrets
1. Not joining Marching Band in Freshman year
2. Causing/making the Jayne-Mark situation worse
3. Continuing my relationship with Jayne after it was over
4. Spending too much money when I first earned it in Freshman/Sophomore year
5. Not waiting to get to iPhone 3G
6. Not finishing Fly With Me and Merodi no Takai
7. Refusing to eat meat when I was little
8. Not getting my license in Junior year when I was supposed to
9. Acting like an idiot around Michael all the time
10. Being weirdly anti-het when I was 12
10 Things I’m Proud Of
1. Getting into Berkeley
2. Making an impact on the lives of my Pit section in Senior year–enough that they saw me as a section leader and not just a peer
3. Winning Mark over
4. And keeping him!
5. Uniting my friends as a solid, faithful group
6. All the fics that I’ve written–yes, even the ones that were shit–but especially The Perfect Date
7. Working and earning money for myself & not taking advantage of my family’s financial prosperity
8. Heritage Award!!!
9. Getting a “Shows Strong Leadership Abilities” mark from Mr. V for being Principal 2nd Violin in Concert Orch
10. Being a good role model for my sister
10 Facts That Sum Me Up
1. It’s really hard to separate me from my computer unless you’ve got an outing planned.
2. I really, really love reading and writing.
3. I love eating–at restaurants, at home, whatever; food is friggin’ fantastic.
4. I’m a dork: I play a Holy Pally in World of Warcraft and watch Yu-Gi-Oh! in Japanese…GLEEFULLY.
5. My friends are very, very, very important to me.
6. Music is a large part of my life; I surround myself with music and musicians on a daily basis.
7. I can be super shy in some situations and super not-shy in others.
8. Being liberal, bisexual, and atheist are three things core to my being — you cannot alter them.
9. I. Love. Hot. Girls. — but really, really hate when the dumb ones start talking.
10. I’ve gotten to where I am because I work extremely hard in school and always do my best, often even if it involves putting it before general health.
10 Secrets
1. I am weirdly drawn to guys. Not romantically, but platonically. I guess they’re just so much less catty and drama-inducing. I’m catty and drama-inducing enough, thank you very much!
2. I really like to draw. I used to draw like almost every day, but then Erin got like super crazy good, and I met Jayne, and I just started feeling very inferior and pathetic and didn’t feel as compelled to draw anymore. I really miss it.
3. I resent my aunts very much for breaking up the family. I haven’t spoken to some of my cousins for almost a decade. And I used to practically live with them.
4. I used to love Ritz desperately. That was a long time ago.
5. I love reading things like askmen.com, LOL. And Cosmo, but to a lesser degree.
6. I tried dieting once.
7. Despite my scorn at domestic life and children, I daydream about marriage and children sometimes.
8. I used to have the biggest crush on Britney Spears. …I still do, just a little bit.
9. I used to not like kissing, but now I keep wishing that Mark kissed me more.
10. I don’t like flowers.
10 Things I Like About Me
1. I love to read.
2. I love to play video games.
3. I’m successful but definitely have my shortcomings.
4. I don’t act spoiled like a lot of the kids here.
5. I understand the value of money. I also understand how many problems it causes. Like family rifts.
6. I know how to wear makeup well.
7. I am a good friend.
8. I believe. Not in God, but in Life and Hope.
9. I stand up for myself when it matters.
10. I dress in my own style, drawing from trends but always creating my own ensemble-styles.
10 Things I Don’t Like About Me
1. I’m flat.
2. I really love good food and eating at restaurants.
3. I cry too easily.
4. I can be really ditzy at times.
5. I can be really, really catty sometimes
6. I can be a snob when it comes to things like girliness and books.
7. I don’t have a lot of common sense.
8. My sense of directions seems to have diminished over the years.
9. I can get really emotional when I’m on my period.
10. My hair is more trouble than it’s worth.
10 Things I Miss
1. Family gatherings
2. Ridts’s sense of humor
3. Life before high school drama
4. Junior year
5. Winter Formal
6. “Big” 2-page essay assignments
7. The Yu-Gi-Oh! fandom in its hayday
8. Watching LOTR in theaters
9. The webdesigning/blog craze in the early 2000s
10. Seeing my friends every day
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Happy Thanksgiving.
I’m thankful for:
Just to name a few.
What are you thankful for?
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YOU ARE A SKANK AND IT MAKES ME SICK.
I WANT TO RESPECT YOU, I REALLY DO.
I LOVE YOU, BUT WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO LEARN?
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