mood: anxious
music: Must Get Out – Maroon 5

What would you do if the person you loved most in the world woke up from a coma with post-traumatic amnesia that put his mindset a decade back, back to a time when you weren’t together — or even friends?

The ABSOLUTELY DELIGHTFUL drama of the boywholives/dracolicious RPG this weekend is killing me! I can’t wait to read tomorrow’s update.

You know you’re a fangirl when you get fandom, fanon, and canon totally mixed up. I argued for like ten minutes with Mark about the fact that Hagrid died in the Harry Potter books before realizing I must have just been channeling some really epic fic that I’d read (and believed was better than JKR’s last three adventures). I looked it up and found that a TON of epic fics have Hagrid die, LOL.

And then today I was reading commentary on this HP RPG I really adore, and they said that Rowling had killed Lupin off. I was like… WUT?!?!?! It’s like reading spoilers except for the fact that the series is over and I already read the whole thing, LOL. So I looked it up, and… WUT?! And then I was like… Wait a second… (Snape/Lupin is one of my OTP’s) OMG, must look up stories where Snape qq’s about Remus’s death! And then I realized that Snape had died.

SO LIKE WHAT THE FUCK JKR

KILLING OFF MY OTPS?

Wow. I must have disliked those last three books a lot more than I’d thought, if I had actually completely forgotten about canon, LOL. And not just any canon, either — canon DEATHS! Jeez. XD

OH MY GOD BOYWHOLIVES/DRACOLICIOUS RPG IS GETTING SO FRICKIN EPIC I’M GOING CRAZY

PLEASE DON’T DIE HARRY

P.S. Best Valentine’s Day ever.

mood: excited and pleased
music: We Don’t Care – Akon

she said she wants to bring me to bring me to her world
she whispered some words
that damn near made my toes curl
she said she’s got that
that i have never seen before
and if i get the taste
i’ll be coming right back for more

To loosen up the atmosphere around here, yes?

1. I have a secret thing for Joel Stein, the LA Times/Time Magazine columnist. I was secretly excited to read his Facebook article and learn random facts about him.

2. I apparently really like funny writers. Well, I guess I’ve always adored funny people, and I do love reading, so combining the two is positively wonderful. I have a not-so-secret thing for Chris Baty, the man in charge of NaNoWriMo. But I do secretly miss his pep talks. I’m glad that I bought his book, No Plot? No Problem!

3. Speaking of NaNoWriMo, I’m a couple thousand words from the end of my novel and I am super excited to print my first draft. For only $5, we get to print 250 pages at the computer center here, and we even get free binding! Aah, I can’t wait to read the whole thing, however shitty it may end up. I hope that I finish soon.

4. I’ve been reading Frances Potter’s fics in the past few days, and man, have I forgotten how exquisitely talented the classic Harry Potter fanfiction writers are. Her language is absolutely beautiful. This, my friends, is why I always say that fanfiction has spoiled Harry Potter for me — fanfiction authors write better about the world that JK Rowling so ingeniously created than JK Rowling writes about it herself.

Harry Potter flopped onto the sofa and let out a long sigh of contented satisfaction. Allowing his body to mould into the soft cushions he sprawled spread-eagled, legs stretched out before him, arms almost at right angles to his body, palms facing upwards.

He felt as if he had crawled inside Harry, inside his skin and bones, within those thoughts and memories. Held softly and safely within those arms and soul. . . .

Occasionally the softness of a kiss would be reinforced by a swift nip of teeth or the scrape of a nail. Sometimes he would feel the fleeting touch of Harry’s hair brush against him and he decided that if he were to die today, he would, at least, have this memory to take with him.

What I look for in a work of fiction is beautiful, exquisite diction. Writers like Frances Potter, Aja, Maya, Furiosity, Cinnamon, Rhysenn, McKay, Arionrhod… (Oh gosh, I can’t even begin to name all of the big authors in the Harry Potter fandom.) They know how to manipulate language, how to give depth to every character, how to make someone weep. I commend Rowling for the fabulous world she created, but the fact remains that she was writing children’s fiction, and her writing reflects that. Rowling’s writing? It doesn’t hold a candle to the beauty that is good Harry Potter fanfiction.

5. The weekend is here… You know what that means? It means that it’s time to watch X-Men: Evolution with Mark and play WoW! And even better — it’s a THREE day weekend! Woohoo! I’m going to frickin’ ding 73 on WoW by Monday night for sure. Super excited.

6. YGO! Series 0 Observation: LOL @ RANDOM YUUGI DAYDREAM FACE WHEN RYOU IS INTRODUCED AS NEW EXCHANGE STUDENT (Heartshipping, FTW!)

7. This isn’t so nerdy, but… I can’t wait to spend tomorrow with Mark!

It never fails to amaze me, what an impact I made on the Darkshipping fandom. I was twelve. Twelve! And I had high schoolers and college kids and adult-adults respecting me, reading my stuff, gushing about it. I even hosted a pervasive fanfiction event; it’s fun going through the old Darkshipping LJ comm archives and seeing people talk about it. Amphitrite’s Darkshipping Ficaway indeed… People are STILL reading my Darkshipping things, still favoriting them. And miraculously, I’m still churning them out.

Fanfiction is my Myspace/Facebook. It’s where I got to meet the most amazing people, who would never even turn my way IRL, who saw a part of me that nobody else ever did, who love and compliment my work without being obligated to at all. It’s where I still get the biggest ego-boost ever (way bigger than being admitted to Cal), where I know that I am loved by many (Favorite Authors!) and where I know that I made an impact on people’s lives.

I love the Internet.